For A While

For Goddness sake I have no idea
Where essence is to find
I'm good for nothing so to speak
If you could read my mind.
In heaven's name where is my path
Why am I afraid to know
The whole revelation
About feelings I don't wanna show.

Neither prison, nor seduction – power we don't have
Mourning, gambling and despair are whirling in the air.
Everyday though shame and pain I wear somebody's trip
This whole revelation about feelings I don't wanna keep.