I Am The Absence

I want you to know who I really am now
I need you to look inside this abyss
I beg you to go, never turn back anymore
I want you to know who I really am now
I painted this place – black as coal
I painted 1000 deaths on these walls of mine

On this path I followed, there has never been someone, rain fell in my dreams
On this way I travelled, I licked all these painful scars and hid them with hope
In this well below me, the end of all things is waiting for us
In this well I’m drowning, can’t you understand all the failure inside?

Breathing silence
Under cold ice

Nothing but another Autumn to creep on me, a darkness will come
Nothing but a skyline, too far to reach again and covered by clouds
And this time I’m falling, this will be the last time I rise up again
I will lay my body down into this abyss and stare at the hollows

Breathing silence
Under cold ice

I painted this place – black as coal
I painted 1000 deaths on these walls of mine
I wanted this place to be as black as the night
I painted it all with each pain I could find

So many times I looked at you, as you said
But I’ve never seen you
I just look around, seeing no-one
I surrender, yes

I’m from another world, and I’m fine here
A world of silence and misunderstandings
In which you can’t have a place

Because you’re nothing to me
Simply nothing…
And so you came, so you’ll go

So I found comfort within myself
Far from this comedy called life
Nothing but silence and blackness
This is the place I call my home