Slow Burn

It begins with a dark glowing amber
Something black burning it's way out of me
Searing the flesh
Pain is the only thing I feel
Scars all I see

Oh no the fire's burning my insides again, what can I do to silence my desire tonight?
Face consumer reason leaving all the ashes there, you won't catch me regretting my decision
I can't keep telling myself what I want to hear
I can't just close my eyes

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I know that it's killing me
and it's poisoning the best of me
what I see I don't want to believe
So let me tell you boy, tell you boy,
about the lies I lead.

That is how it kills, I got some flames and gasoline
Broken teeth replace the blackout memories in my head
Wreckage from the blast, it often shakes me to the floor
(to the floor)
I know it's over but I can't go home tonight

And after this I feel as empty as the night before, feel the pain and yet I'm still begging for more
Masochistic, nihilistic, gurging wrecked up thoughts
My life's a mess and I can't find a way to fix it

I can't keep telling myself what I want to hear
I can't just close my eyes
(my eyes, my eyes, my fucking eyes)

(Chorus)

Calling
Calling out
The darkness reaches of my soul are riddled with self-doubt
Crawling
Crawling out
My will to fight will more than suffice
while others will lay down

It's only as dark as you make it

(Chorus)